After three days of feeling more run down than usual, I woke up early Monday with the now too overwhelming sensation in my body that a seizure was coming. Seconds after standing up from getting out of bed, it started. & I was in a state of ill until 3AM..when the pain/nausea got so severe I couldn’t handle it anymore. This time we were lucky. It wasn’t busy, and I got my medicine so quickly…I’m pretty positive it was under 5 minutes. & the doctor was kind enough to NOT poke me in the abdomen during such time!..instead, seeing me after the medicine kicked in. He was doing the very best he could to get me back on my feet without any delay or issues. And he did. (:

I saw my beloved Alicia last Friday!!<3 it has been nearly 3 months since last seeing her, and being that she’s my best friend, that’s a pretty horrible track record. [I’m sorrrryyy!! my body is so good at ruining plans/holidays.] But in a few hours of hanging out in my room, she brightened my spirits, inspired a room change, and gave me ideas for clothing to work on. :D I missed her company so much..she’s just one of those people that you can’t help but gravitate towards and want to hang out with. I’m excited because we’re planning on actually hanging out this summer, crafting, sewing, shooting, adventuring. & body willing, she’ll help me decorate my new bedroom as well as dye my hair some cotton candy colors next week.

Six days after, my family and I were changing my bedroom around the way Alicia had mentioned..and it was perfection! I can’t wait til we can afford some real furniture  [desk/sewing table/vanity] to complete it. Currently my room is in a shambles because I thought it would be a fantastic idea to clean out my closet and dresser(s)  at the same time. That was dumb. I made myself so exhausted I couldn’t even get half way done. Boxes of trinkets, little hats, about 12 wigs, and a whole lot of scrap-booking material are covering my ‘table’ and floor right now. It’s daunting to look at; but I’m going to use the chance to photograph my room as well as certain items for tumblr. I’ve had some people ask questions that I will answer in photographs. (:

I have to take breaks in between doing anything..I go out to the store, and I have to take an entire day to sleep after to heal. I see friends, and I have to take a week or so before I can try to do anything. But when I do feel good and have those random little moments, I do as much as possible- and that’s what I’ve done this past week on my random few days. I went through my photos, realizing I have got to upload more images. I’m a photo hoarder. I must share so I can begin again. If that makes sense. I visited old times through old photos, and stared revamping + adding images to my portfolio.

My grandmother fell on March 30th. She refused to go to the hospital. I’m so worried about her. \: She’s 82. She can’t keep falling on her head and face. I hate thinking about it. hate it. so. I’m moving on. I was able to see lubbs yesterday. All we did was sit and watch movies/talk, but it was comforting and gave me some confidence knowing I CAN see friends for a few hours. I missed human contact and conversation!

I most miss photographing/modeling. I went from a full-time job behind the camera, to no job. not even shooting friends for fun. [My models are all gone, I need new ones!] and I’m trying to save up for a camera when I don’t even have $5 left over at the end of the month sometimes. This may take awhile.

I haven’t slept in about 30 hours so my eyes are actually starting to close on me. I believe it is time I stop all this typing [that I doubt anyone read..but if you did you ROCK] and go to a cuddly sleep with my two lovely pups.

Love.heart.Clarabellafaire.